Lately I’ve been feeling like I need privacy.
Ironic, yes, talking about privacy to the Internets who I blab about my life to almost daily, but stick with me here.
Its having three kiddos, one of whom is a baby who wants to be in my arms every waking moment, two of whom are preschoolers who see a closed door as an invitation to barge right in. Its having my in-laws living with us for going on three months now. Its having something social on the calendar practically every day. Its looking at our schedule and seeing it booked for weeks ahead.
And I love my family. I love my kids, my husband, my in-laws, my friends. I love our full life.
I just am feeling the need to be alone. Ideally, alone in my house since that is my favorite place to be. Soaking in a bubble bath, sipping a glass of wine, curling up to watch a girly movie in my pjs, perhaps while eating some ice cream. All uninterrupted, in quiet. But realistically, I’d just love an anonymous day out. Sitting in Barnes and Noble, sipping coffee and reading a gossip magazine, I mean an intellectual-type book. Browsing through the mall with no stroller or kids in tow. Just some time to be alone. Not talking to anyone, not taking care of anyone, not having to stop what I’m doing every three hours to nurse a baby. Just gloriously alone.
Sigh. A girl can dream.